Deep In thought

I wrote this awhile ago....Its been in my drafts folder so I decided to publish...

Being hurt causes so many questions, especially when a person that you love and that you thought loved you is unfaithful. You want to know know why? how? The WHY is the biggest one. My sister told me when all this happens, she says, when you were a good woman they will come back to you, they will always come back. And maybe that's true but maybe its to late. Sometimes the pain is much to deep and that wound is something that person can never heal. No matter what the answers to the questions are, that you ask, the answers will never be enough, they will never ease the pain. And no matter how much I want to know why, I know deep inside that, no matter what he says, it will not be enough.

I feel bad because maybe  he has changed. Maybe now he realizes what a good woman I was to him. In my heart I knew it wasn't something I did but, it didn't take away the times I picked myself apart. My ego was broken, the woman I thought I was, and knew, was broken. He broke me

He would always say, you think you love me more then I love you.  I would never answer but YES I did love you more then you loved me.

At the end of it all I hope he did change and that he is a better man for her, or any woman he is with. I will always be his cheerleader and want to see him do well. I wish him nothing but the best. But I know that, I could never make him happy.

Hurting someone changes who they are, it changes how they are towards you. but most importantly It changes how they see you. If you are not ready for that change....think about it before you do it. Stop taking love for granted. Love, is giving someone the power to hurt you but praying they wont. Love is protecting someone and thinking of them, before you think of yourself.