If I had to Sum up 2014 in one word.....

It would be Clarity....

I must say that 2014 was not an easy year. Its so easy to say that you have moved on when it is "out of site, out of mind" but when its in your face, that's when the struggle begins and you realize that letting go wasn't that easy.

For the first time EVER I put my feelings, MYSELF, before anyone else. I have learned what I deserve and realized what I wanted out of life and I know, what I don't want. I had to be selfish. I had to put me first and that wasn't easy. When I love, I love with every piece of me. I will put that persons feelings before my own. I was tired of doing that because, while I was putting everyone else first, who was putting me first? No one. So, i did.

I also learned that loving someone doesn't mean that they need to be an active part in your life. I will put this out there. I will always love my ex. Even after everything he did to me, even after how he broke me, I will always love him. We had 5 good years, and I am not ashamed of that. But I know now, that what he wants and what I want, are not the same. It took me to be broken, to pick myself up, to realize that. And I am grateful that he let me go because, I know that I wasn't strong enough to do so. And at that time I would have accepted any way he treated me because, I loved him. So, aside from all the pain, I have grown so much. The woman I am today is not the woman I was 3 years ago. And I am happy to say that, I am in a much better place because of what he did. Everything he did.

Leaving this year , has left with so much clarity. I feel like I finally see clear, and everything that God has been trying to give me, teach me, I am finally getting it. I am grateful, I am blessed and I am Happy. God is SO GOOD!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!