Trust

"I want to love, Like I've Never been hurt"

 

Its been my saying lately and its truly how I feel.

 Being completely broken in the past by someone I loved, I know what it feels like to not trust, to build a wall to protect myself, yourself, from being hurt. Being cautious with the next person and not wanting to "give in" to someone that comes along. Trust me I have been there and one day I woke up with a totally different view. I pictured my life with out love, with out that feeling of having someone to come home to everyday. I am so afraid of not having love that, it took over the pain and broke down the wall of protection I had built. I am more afraid of missing out on True Love, of missing out on someone amazing, that the pain didn't matter anymore. I feel like Ive been hurt, been there and done that, and I'm ok after being broken, so what do I have to lose? Nothing, because if I get hurt again, I will get up as I have done in the past and move on. I know I will be ok. I will be ok with saying I tried, then not trying again.

 

I am playing this "game" of life, its not fun sitting on the bench watching everyone play!!