Im not in Control

Sometime ago, while in deep thought and prayer. I realized that I did not trust completely the person I was praying to. I didn't fully trust God. I knew that because I second guessed everything that was happening in my life. From the pain to the happiness, I questioned everything. How could I pray to someone telling God that I will leave the situation in his hands and yet I questioned what I was going through, I questioned my struggle. At that moment I gave into him completely. I realized that God knows me, knows my thoughts, my heart, he knows me. And I should trust  my struggle, and trust him. I am at a place now, where, I do not question what I am going through, what I am feeling, what will come, I live in that moment and move on. I know that regardless, Gods plan for me is much bigger then I have for myself. And I trust that where I am in my life, its exactly where he wants me to be. Knowing that and trusting that is such an awesome feeling.