Umm

Sometimes we do things for people to help them in their time of need, we expect them to follow through with it. If its paying you back, or whatever the case may be. I have to learn that, as much as I love someone, I have to look out for me first. I did things for people and now in the end, they diminish what was done for them. Being ungrateful is one of the ugliest things a person can be. I do things for people because it is in my heart to do so. But at the same time, I expect you to respect my time, and  my money. And when people decide to take advantage of that,  is when things get complicated.  This world is full of ugly people, and I don't mean physically either.  And sometimes they come in forms of poeple that we once loved.

Things happened with in the last couple of days that make me realize, I was holding on because I felt like this money situation was the least this person can do, is pay me back. After all the damage I thought this was the least he can do. That was my mistake.

I never noticed that it was giving him control. I let it go. there is no $ in the world worth the hasstle, the disrespect I have been through.

I have found my peace...my happiness and I refuse to let ANYONE take that away.

Learn to let go of things. Sometimes we have to weigh the options. The feeling of the weight lifting off my shoulders, the stress leaving my life, is a feeling I can not explain. I will rather be broke and homesless then to give someone control of my life.


And in case you didnt know...Im blessed By the BEST!!!