If I could have one wish, it would be to have the opportunity to give those that I've lost a hug. To be able to feel them in my arms and let them know I love them.
There are so many things to be thankful for this yr. I'm sitting here watching my son play his Xbox in my bed...in my own place. God is good. But that doesn't ease my heart from the sadness that I'm feeling.
Yesterday I went to my sisters and she said that she cried all day at work bc she realized that this year, she won't get a phone call from Frankie. That stayed with me and the ride home I just cried. Somehow I can still hear him calling my sons name "Rubiooooo" lol..and although this should be a happy time, I've been in tears all morning. You will never realize how the little things are the things that stick with you until you don't have them anymore. Frankie, aren't u lucky that you get to celebrate Jesus's birthday day, with him. Wow I am So jealous. I hope you know how much we miss and love you. Moms going to the place you were laid today. She made something for you. Please comfort her. I see her and it breaks me inside because I know how much she misses you. I look at her and it makes me sooo sad, to not be able to comfort her... So please give her some type of comfort... I wish you were still here.
I hope that if you are out there and you are missing someone this season, that God comforts your heart. That he brings you some peace today and everyday. Let us not take advantage of the people we can see everyday, but instead embrace them.
Have a good Christmas everyone... Xoxox May God bless our home with peace and Love
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