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There was a point where my heart was so broken that I felt like I could never love again. I was so lost and consumed in my pain that my heart felt like it stopped beating, I was so blinded by my tears that I could not see the blessing that was right in front of me.
I felt alone, I cried myself to sleep for months, I called him sobbing wanting him back, I felt like I couldn't go on with out him. I was so lost that I lost, myself. I realized that the person I had become was someone that I didn't even recognize. I was lost in a way that I didn't know who I was....I had lost me

It took me awhile to see all the things I had compromised being in this thing called love. I have always wanted to get married, he didn't, so I told myself that as long as he loved me everything else would be ok. I wanted a family, he didn't see anything past his children, not even me. I was faithful and loyal he wasn't but, I thought that if he loved me, that's all I needed and I would make things ok. But the biggest thing is, i was willing and able to love and fight for that love, I was willing to fight for him, he had no fight in him. The man I loved had no fight in him.

It was a struggle, I won't sit here and make it seem like it was easy, by any means was it or still is. Till this day i struggle with the whys and how's and could've should've ......but when I look in the mirror the person, the woman that's stars back at me is someone I will never compromise again. I know my worth and that's is the biggest lesson a woman has to learn, is learning and realizing, her worth.

I know I am worth  being someone's wife, I am worth someone coming home to me everyday, I am worth being loved. I now know that I am worth way more then he could give. I am thankful for the lessons I've learned through him, and he will always be apart of who I have become....I thank him for that.


Most of All am thankful that he allowed someone else to be able to enjoy, love, cherish, adore, pamper, all of this woman that I am....

I cherish me....I adore me.....I enjoy me, but most importantly I LOVE ME .....and that's something No one can ever take from me....